Devious Concoctions.

I don’t care if you prefer to hang out with people i hate.

I don’t care if you talk behind my back.

I don’t care if you embarass me in public.

I don’t care if you go all out to hurt me.

I don’t care if you threaten me.

I don’t care if you never called, text or even say hi to me.

I don’t care if you like to ignore me.

I don’t care if you love to brag about your achievements to everyone, including me.

I don’t care even if you never will ever care about me the way i care about you.

Because basically, you’re not worth caring about.

Sigh……… i’m piled up with work. Hardly a time o myself. Sure miss my younger form days….. skipping class, mixing around with the older forms and stuff. Yeah i know it was wrong, but it was so fun! Then form 3 (PMR) came and heck, i’m serious once again. I’m not saying i’m dull and what-not, but i really can’t wait for SPM to be over. Then this whole weight could be lifted off my back.

Hehe, my everday rambling is almost like this. Wonder why my friends are crazy yet…….

Sometimes, i just think i really can’t grow up. College sounds fun and all, but would i be able to cope? Another one of those ppl-who-depend-on-tuition-too-much….. yup that’s me. Plus, i wanna keep contact with all my school friends. But somehow i don’t think that would possible. Lucky we’ll prolly be in the same college…. i think……

Argh……. fore sighting’s scary. Actually, this was just a dream i just had like an hour ago. And we all know dreams are just fragments of our subconscious…… or are they?

Hmmm….. first post of my second blog, after abandoning the livejournal one. Wonder if it’s still there….. Oh well……. This would be so much more easier to keep….

Anyway, roughly 36 more days to SPM. I must be dillusional to be counting down, since after all i can hardly keep awake while studying! ex. history. I’ve been lucky so far ‘coz i’ve got tips and hey, haven’t really failed for the sub (not counting the post-exaggerations before the exams)(you know what I’m talking about). Oh yes and there’s biology. Quite interesting, but with a poor memory like mine, scientific terms are not easy to grasp. Sigh…….My hat off to those top 3 scorers in my class……………

Oh, and YAY! I got a place to play in my music school’s concert! Oh and this year, i’ll be playing a 6-hands piece…….. meaning 3 at one piano. This is bound to create some excitement amidst the SPM stress! OH and the best thing is, the concert’s postponed to January next year! Which means i can finish with SPM and need not rush for the concert! Whee…….OH……… but some of my friends prolly won’t be able to come…….. granted the National Service would have already started……. Darn….

Mom’s coming. Gtg bury myself in my book-ery grave.