Devious Concoctions.

Well…… I guess this is it. I mean after like 3 months of doing completely nothing at home (though i consider day-dreaming alot doing something) i finally get to go to college. Doing A Levels in Taylors. Happy? Not so. Excited? Very. Nervous? Extremely. Even though AL is in my to-avoid-list, i guess there is nothing much i can do about it. Considering that it’s gonna be SPM-cum-STPM and i’m sure to be in a nervous wreck and no tuition this time (shoot!), yea i’m hoping i would discover what i wanna do for the rest of my life. Yes, that is why i ‘have’ to take AL, because i have no idea what i wanna be. Oh bother.

It’s been really bugging me for the past one month and even more so when it’s nearing the day. For one, most graduates don’t work as what they graduate with. Isn’t that a total waste? I guess i’m being over cautious. But i can’t help it. Considering i made one mistake already (okie it wasn’t a mistake but deemed so by others) i just want to settle on something and go all the way with it. How do we exactly know that that particular job is what we wanna do for the rest of our lives? Answer is, we don’t. We’re human and we make mistakes, tumble and fall, pick ourselves up and start over. God, i hate it when i answer myself. Argh! I’m getting nowhere!

I did consider doing something that i’m good at, but not neccesarily like it, so that i might earn enough to keep me, myself and i happy. Haha, since when does money ever buy happines? (there i go again answering myself) I guess i just don’t wanna end up like what my parents are doing. They just do it for the job, to earn to keep the family together kinda situation. That’s good and everything, but that’s not satisfying. Sooner or later, i’m gonna be bored, and when i’m bored, i go crazy and do nutz stuff like, today. Forced myself to read Da Vince Code even though the damn movie spoilt it (ppl, always read the novel first, then watch the movie) and ended up in a serious delegation with one of the music teachers on Christianity……. which concluded with Phantom of the Opera?? Okie… that wasn’t very nutty….

Nowadays, i’m just freakin paranoid of making bad choices. I just never thought i would end up making decisions like these before. (curse the M’sian Edu system for not allowing their students take up subs they want in higer grades). I’m just having a bad day i guess. Maybe that’s why i’m being all so contemplative today. Shucks, curse sardin sambal…………..

Stop! I’m in a delirious state at the moment because I’ve just talked to an Oompa-Loompa! Yes, it’s true. Oompa-Loompa’s are described as short, primitive looking men, with unshaven beards and god knows what other facial hair and their fashion is, until this day, animal skin. But that’s basically not it. What I’m trying to describe is the characteristics of an Oompa-Loompa. They’re playful creatures, that love to sing-a-long and make up funny rhymes; as stated in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, written by Roald Dahl. WRONG! That’s is what they want you to believe. In real life, Oompa-Loompa are in actual fact, normal looking human beings. Except that they love to rhyme, are stupid, weird, doesn’t understand simple English words like, "no" and "leave me alone" and "grow up’; loves to tease ppl, makes lame jokes, talk about themselves constantly and their oh-so amazing achievements, which gives the impression that they’re smaller than they actually are! Oh, and u meet the really evil ones, they love to blame you for everything, even if u didn’t do anything, they believe you did them and would continue stalking you.

And oh yea, i just found my beloved ‘Little Oxford Dictionary & Thesaurus’! Yay, i don’t have to buy the big heavy ones now! Anyway, I’ve come up with a few interesting finds.

1. manipulate : to handle skilfully or cunningly.
2. deception : to trick or to mislead someone into believing something illusionary.
3. Misdirection : to direct a person’s attention away from what is actually happening, which usually is something that shouldn’t be done.
4. Lie : a statement that is known to be untrue.

So, all being said and done, we’ll take this for example : You’re asking for help, the person helping you eventually wants things out of you. What can u do? If you’re someone who bends easily, u would, of course, succumb to that persons demands because u think u owe the person for helping you. But if you’re someone who stands for his/her rights, you would, (and this is most probably the logical thing to do), is stand for your right and state it clearly that the help was given on free will and on no account was there any statement that you owe so-and-so this. Not that I’m saying everyone who helps out is like that, I’m just stating the cunning ones who thinks that they deserve more than necessarily returned.

And for crying out loud, if you do wanna lend a hand, please do it out of a genuine heart. If you’re doing it out of hoping to get something in return, then don’t bother. Chances are you are gonna be disappointed in the end. Don’t say i didn’t warn you! I hate people who, help out, suddenly comes around and wants something that they know and i reinstate KNOW they cannot have, (and being told for ages so, and please move along instead of being a whiner about it) and after all that, refuses to continue helping out. This would leave the other party in a bit of a sticky-wicket. It leaves them in a muddle, and who asks to be left like that. It’s horrible.

Oh well, luckily there are a few individuals who have plucky friends who are good at predicting the outcome of such situations (and are mostly right) and we get ourselves prepared. So boo-hoo if you think that you’ve won and you want me to say the things you want to hear because it ain’t happening. There is more than meets the eye which clearly describes YOU! Ta-ta.

Yay!! Yesterday’s music concert was a bomb!!! Haha, was worried for the 10 minutes before the whole thing started cuz i was one of the stage crew + i had like 4-5 performance on stage. So yea, was worried i might screw up something. Unlike the previous concert where my first performance was playing itself, this time i had time to warm up to the stage. By going out and just singing and clapping ‘We will rock you’ with the rest of my mates and the faculty band. It did take my nervousness off. And working with Siao Leng whom i know well, made things a whole lot easier! Yay us; C3 and C4! (meaning crew no. 3 and 4)

Anyway, our summer medley which came in last before the end of the first set went smoothly! Our band was called ‘On the Map’ and only consisted of 5 girls! Yay, girl power!! The transitions to the other songs went smoothly, and this time i didn’t forget my cue! And even though i did slip up a few chords, i didn’t panic! Usually i do, but i didn’t which i consider a huge feat on my part. Ah…. and it seems that once again duets are a no-no for me. I blanked out at one point. hehe…

Oh i love the ‘Buttercups’. They were 4 lil girls aged 5-6 i think and they sang Rainbow Connection! So cute……. And ‘Off the Charts’ were awesome with their ‘Mission Impossible + Pink panther’ Medley. Culture fix 1 was an interesting performance. We had a guest performer play on the Veena, u know the traditional Indian guiter that’s huge and played sitting on the floor? That was a great addition to the whole rock atmosphere we had. Oooh… and the battle of the bands was funny, challenging the teachers and all. First time playing guiter on stage, and i don’t even play the guiter! And then Siao Leng came up and played ‘Castle in the Sky’ accompanied by flutes. I love that one. It was so melancholic and mellow….. Then the faculty band. With teachers playing, obviously it would be flawless! And i wonder if i sang on the correct pitch. I could barely hear myself over the others. Oh well, it’s all over now.

Yes it’s all over now…… back to college next week. Back to practicing scales and exam pieces for my exam in August. Oh bother. And i can’t go for that recording with the other girls coz i start college on the same week as that! Would be fun though….. oh well, i guess I’ll have to hear all about it and use my imagination to what happened.

Ah…. Past few days have been somewhat busy. Finally it’s June! Which means Music Makers Concert and College. (i’m definitely dreading the latter one). Oh yea, and previously the 17 photo shoot. It’s okie. And it’s hard! I mean, okie i’ve never gotten into the habit of taking photos while moving, so pretending ur having fun splashing around and looking at the camera is thoroughly exhausting. Like the last shoot, they made us walk like 30 times back and forth because the alignment between us was out. Damn the artificial sand, my heel has been exfoliated to mere thin skin. Haha, I’m never joking about America’s Next Top Model again……

And so, Music Maker’s concert 2006 : Light, Camera, Movies. It’s our annual concert where we usher in new talent and show off child prodegies in the school. This year’s one is a whole lot of fun. For one thing, there are more medleys and band playing and not so much duets. And ‘cher Pearly is super nice when it comes to what we wanna do with music and the band members. hehe……. Anyway, i’ve been really neglecting my music pieces which i very well know i shouldn’t (considering this is the 2nd time i’m playing the exact same pieces) and therefore should be very well rehearsed in it. Ah, i’m driving Mr lean up the wall, and God knows he’s an extremely patient person. Oopz…. anyway, in case those of you are interested, it’s this sunday (june 18) at Security Commission, Mt Kiara. Time is 4pm - 6pm and tickets are rm20. Msg me if u wanna come. All is welcome (duh)

I still have no idea what subs to choose for A levels. Oh bother, i’ll worry about that later.

Argh………. tomorrow’s the big day. Okie, it’s no biggee, but still. I guess it’s biggest thing that ever happened to me in my life so far……… I’m not really nervous much. Just scared i’ll screw up the tricks i’ve been practicing. I know i’m not ready. And trust me, when i’m not prepared for anything, boy, everything else goes!!! Haha, still i guess the key is to relax and have fun! Go with the flow! It’s a once in a life time opportunity and i’m allowed to go. May i emphasize the word ‘allowed’. Yes, my totally strict parents are allowing me to go! Yes!! Yahoo!! Haha, I shall gloat because i think i deserve to (don’t i?) : I’m gonna be on a magazine!!!! With a maybe ridiculous pose but who cares!!! And i think on Hitz.TV too!! Whee…………….. and say something totally embarassing but WHO CARES??? Whee…………….. Over and out. =P