Love changes everything?
Hmm…… when are exams are so near, suddenly it seems I’m gung ho to do everything else BUT study! Like, i was play with my cards! I wanna write that song! And i wanna watch all the good movies that suddenly pop up on tv! My AS is so freakin screwed.
Scary enough, i hardly care about my exam. I don’t know why. It’s like i only care for econs and math. Thinking skills and physics can just fly out the window! And what’s amazing is that it’s the same girl who used to think exams were everything! I would cry if i didn’t do well, but now i’m like, ‘okie that’s over and done with.’ Mom wouldn’t be too proud…
It’s weird, when do u exactly know that what u feel for someone is real? Sure, words and gestures are always evidence of that, but sometimes, those can be fake too. No real grasp of the term, ‘love’ now is there? I can say i love you and mean it and feel that way, but what else is there? What is the real definition of ‘love’?
Before the words, ’she’s got a love crisis’ pops up in your heads, no, i don’t have a crisis! It’s just that today Bal and i were having a long chat over this whole matter. She’s a realist, i’m an idealist. So you can see we both have contrasting views on the matter. I’m just curious to know when you see couples nearly everday in college, whispering, ‘i love you’ just what does he/she mean? As in i care about u to bits? I wanna have your babies? (hahaha) or what? It’s so general!
Just so you know, saying ‘i love you’ when you don’t know the person can change those 3 words to ‘Who are you?’ sooner or later.
I’m going analytical again! Whee……..
As y’all know, i’m one insane person. I don’t really know who i am. Over the past few years, enough experience has thought me a lot of things. Recently a close friend said i change, but in what way he didn’t clarify. I mean change is good, we can’t stay the same forever. But you know, i’m just wondering what have i blossomed into? Haha, and i’m supposed to know myself more than other people should.
I know i’ve matured a bit, became more of an extrovert, developed my leadership skills, had a 180 degrees change of POV on relationships, become clingy because suddenly everyone seems to be leaving, acquired a more competitive trait, improving my sarcasms skills, perky (?), and what else?
I remember before i made the transfer from Mass Comm to A Levels, my old teacher told me upon registering for A levels, that my whole view on life and things would change and that i would become a different person. Am I?
